struggling in a new place
so it’s been about 5 months since I moved to Germany with my boyfriend. Things are going really well for him – he’s on to running his third choir. On the other hand, I am struggling to earn more than 50 euro a week. I really am doing everything I can think of doing, I have applied for jobs tutoring english, I have applied to be an event photographer, I have started offering tours of the city and photography workshops, I’ve even started plans to open my own art gallery. I have started a lot of things, but right now, there’s nothing happening results wise. I’ve done 2 city tours, one workshop and I have two students to tutor. I just don’t know how much longer I can really go on like this, with nothing happening and nothing looking likely to happen. I really do hate to whinge and vent, but I don’t really have any friends here yet that I can talk to, so it’s all kind of bottling up inside. It could also be that the wet weather today is not helping with my mood – it’s really not pleasent when it rains. This may not even be the best place to vent, but it’s pretty much all I have. It just seems as though every move I make means making less money, spending more and haveing more of a struggle to get through life. Seems like I’m never going to be one of those people who get to talk about their big break, or having finally made it good. I’m just forever going to struggle through with everything, and nothing will ever get any better.